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i feel like i am becoming part cyborg, which, i guess is retarded, because cyborg is "part" by definition.

but i really feel like the things i do on my computer are a formative framework for my thoughts, the connections i am making these days, how my neurons are firing and across what synapses.

it's like whole other dimensions of communication are possible, whole other binary halves of privacy, whole other context-specific definitions of anonymity.

i just feel a visceral AHHHHH feeling when i fuse with my laptop. and i do think that the laptop factor adds to the whole thing. most of the time i fuck around on the internet either in the morning when i first wake up, and sit in bed drinkning coffee and checking email, or late at night, also in bed, before i go to sleep. so essentially the physical parameters of my cyber-existence involve me being curled up under a comforter, with pillows, with a pleasant weight of the laptop warming my knees or my stomach. i am not trying to make this sound like some weird computer porn or anything, i'm just saying, that the solitary intensity of being online, the distilled flow of thought and information that can be bent and structured every which way in terms of input and output, the bricolage of random connections of hypertext, is probably intensified by the fact that in terms of surface contact, the computer, when i am using it, is like a part of me.

pnts, is this normal? :P

anyway, i have to go paint my room "moss ring" green.

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More on the Runaway Democrats, this time courtesy of New York Times (itself making metaheadlines this week on account of fanciful "journalism" to put it very very mildly).

Everyone, just read the story, and pause for a second and think just how WEIRD it is. fucked up, yes, in the sense that they are already using "missing Democrats" deck, a la Iraqi leaders deck as an illustration to the story, which--think about the "unpatriotic" implications for a second! but also just plain, sheer weird, theater-of-the-absurd weird. Bunuel weird. they put the missing democrats on the MILK CARTONS?

NO FUCKING WAY

ok, you know that old philosophical problem, if the world has gone insane, and you are sane, what does that mean?

i think Bush and Blair being nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize for the War in Iraq is epistemological proof that the world has, in fact, gone insane.

Homeland Security Department Used to Track Texas Democrats

so, in another interesting development it turns out that the Texas Republicans sicked the Homeland Security on the Runaway Democrats in order to find them.

No wonder about the deck of cards, then. I mean, Homeland Security exists to protect us from terrorists. Homeland security is not supposed to be used for domestic party interests. Well, the obvious conclusion to this very special syllogism from hell is--the Texas Democrats are terrorists! But of course!

I think between paint fumes and seeking periodic respite from paint fumes on the internet I am about to lose my mind. I don't know what's affecting me more, the fumes, or the news. I am going for a walk.