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The reason why ________ is an asshole, is because i think that if someone is truly sorry about the way they treated me, they should be saying it to me. they should not be calling up my friend and trying to get sensitivity/sympathy points by telling them that they had a dream about me in which they tried to say how sorry they are and apologize for how they acted and i can't hear them and it's oh so very frustrating. i wouldn't even care if he never acknowledged what a jerk he was. some people just can't do that. like bush can't make the words "shame on me" come out of his mouth, even in the context of a quote. but to take an apology that should by right be issued to me, whether or not i would choose to accept it, and to twist it into some sort of sympathy-gaining tool to use on my friend, that's fucked up. not that i am surprised.

dream

i had a buffy dream last night. in the dream, i was with buffy, willow and dawn (but i was also willow--kind of); we were all walking alongi n this old school building looking for a door that would take us to "the other side". we finally found it, and we were in some opposite world, where all sounds resonated much brighter and clearer. we kept walking and then we were in some animal shelter. there was a white dog i wanted to take, because the shelter owner saoid that he was getting rid of all the dogs, because he was going out of business, but i could not. a woman in the room with us got a bottle of ritalin from him. i wanted one too, but he said that i did not have a prescription for a refill. in the dream the prescription was a display that appeared on a ringing cell phone to say "ritalin refill." then it was night, and i was willow, and i was doing magic to teleport everyone, and i felt very connected to the nightfall and the shadows; so in addition to being willow i was also me, and it was obvious that either willow-me had a crush on just-me, or just-me had a crush on willow-me, i am not sure. then i woke up.