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it's almost 5 a.m...
Oct. 12th, 2001 05:35 amEverything is so surreal I can't describe it.
I guess it all gets normalized, repressed into dreams, with flashes of fear brought about by another news report or whatnot and then rerouted out of necessity.
I woke up feeling leaden today, from being scared and depressed all the time, from drinking so much this past month, from not having restul sleep.
And again, it's 5 a.m. and i am on the web reading all the new warnings.
Although my usual weird schitzophrenic mindset is the only thing that is allowing me to function and not snap.
I guess it all gets normalized, repressed into dreams, with flashes of fear brought about by another news report or whatnot and then rerouted out of necessity.
I woke up feeling leaden today, from being scared and depressed all the time, from drinking so much this past month, from not having restul sleep.
And again, it's 5 a.m. and i am on the web reading all the new warnings.
Although my usual weird schitzophrenic mindset is the only thing that is allowing me to function and not snap.
